MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY WELCOME 2017!

    My last Christmas and New Year was very sad. I was not able to send money to my grandparent because I was having issue and problems in financial. I felt depressed why I let things happen.

    When I called my grandparents in my province, my grandma was crying. I know they miss me. But it's difficult to get job in holidays as everybody is busy and usually they hired January. So I have to do is to wait til the holiday is over.

    I get extra income when I guide some tourists that spending vacations in Philippines. I usually make a plan for their vacation. But in Manila, I have to spend money everyday for foods and expenses.

    It's really sad to be alone in Christmas. My first Christmas to be far away from my grandparents. Usually, when I spent Christmas with them, I make preparations. I cook their favorites and I make noise in New Year's eve.

    I thought it will be much fun in manila to be with friends on holidays, but wrong. It's always a good feeling to spend it with family and the people we love.
 

    In Christmass eve, some neighbors knocked on my door to invite me to participate their Christmas party. Just inside compound, they are having party and games, dancing and foods. It was so funny and entertaining. There is karaoke too! anI I love karaoke coz I love music. It's sad that i didn't take photos.

    But even I was smiling, deep inside my heart, I was crying.  I miss my grandparents and I want to spend Christmas with them.
   
    Last New Year was also same. But I have no preparations, I just stayed in my room the whole day. I just go out to buy foods outside and came back to my room.

    What's happening to me? Why am I losing hope? I feel so alone. I feel different. I became emotional and less confident. Am I going to give up my dream? God, please give me more strength and encouragement. I don't want to stock here.

    I saw groups of ants carrying foods. They work very hard, they risk their lives in getting foods. They never give up. And maybe from too much eating they transform and wings growing on their back. They maybe dream to fly and reach the light bulb.

    Maybe I need changes. I need to change my mindset and stop thinking negative. Maybe this will be my new year's resolution. I should not give up my dreams.

    But, is new year's resolution true? Some people jumped high so they'll get tall. Some noise their coins so more money coming. Some wear polka dots for a goodluck. Some prepared 12 kinds of rounds fruits on  their table and sweets so more blessings and strong family. Some couples kiss so they'll be together for longtime.

    I don't know if it's true. But it's fun to believe right? Do we really wait for new year for changes? why not everyday when we wake up, right? I believe that changes starts within ouselves. If I will not move, nothing will good happen.

     Mind is so powerful.We build our dreams.We make things we want.  We can create things that are impossible.We make future. We choose who we wanna be. Somehow we can defeat weak emotions and choose to be happy. What we want is what we get but we just have to push ourselves. So I'm gonna get up continue struggling.

 MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!

my first sexy pics!

   

I met a good friend.. she is now a successful photographer. She said the camera loves me. How about a photoshoot with me?

    At first, I was shy. But then, I have to think that I am beautiful and no reason to be shy. If normal people can do, why can't I? 

    So I challenged myself. My friend keeps taking me photos and stolen shots.

 The theme is sexy. My god! first time to do it. I am happy about the result.

     When I uploaded my photos in facebook, everyone is so shocked and surprised! It's my first time to upload sexy photos. 

But yes, I did it! I received positive comments. Wow! thank u. Now I am more confident. 

During my job application, i saw a man on the wheelchair

     I came online to find a job. I got a call from a call center company. I was invited for an interview. I go all alone. First I was scared coz I thought I'll be lost. I'm still confused about the public transportation. But luckily I found the building. 

     I passed the initial interview. Then I took the versant exam. I passed it. After that, a call interview. Then computer exam. I was so tensed. Some of the applicants have experienced already. And they are really good. 

     We are only a few people waiting for the final interview coz some didn't pass. I'm almost there! Feelings were mixed. Tensed. Hungry. Tired.coz I went there 9am and it was 12midnight but still waiting for the result. It's always like this when applying call center. But I was excited about the result. 

     While we all waiting in the lobby for the result after the final interview with the operational manager, I saw someone that really touched me.A guy on the wheelchair. He is so positive. He just finished signing the contract. Wow! He must be smart. He is a good inspiration to me. He said he plays basketball even in the situation. 

     His situation is never a hindrance to doing what he wants in life and lives happily. He looks for a job and he is responsible to his family. Wow! such amazing character! 

     While waiting for the result, I am inspired and I got new friends. Some of the applicants were called to get inside the room and others with me are still waiting. 

     Then I heard the HR called my name. I followed him to his room. He said, "I'm sorry, you didn't pass the final interview. You can come back to apply again after 3months." 

      I wanna cry but I won't cry. I waited long hours just to get failed. But that's ok. Maybe it's not for me. 

     My friends from the waiting area were sad to know I failed. They expected that I will pass and they really wanted to work with me. "sorry guys, I didn't pass. But that's ok. Maybe it's not for me but at least, I learned something today and I got new friends. We can still see each other sometime." and then we shared contact numbers.

    In life, every day we learned something and people come and go but we create good memories with them. Even some negative result happen, I will stay positive and never give up, continue to learn, continue to dream.

I learned something today!

    My first time in Manila was exciting. I met different people. I discovered many places and learned to use public transportations though sometimes it's confusing. But with the use of Ways apps and google map,I was able to find the places.

     If I got trouble in commuting and finding the places, I booked a Grab. It's fixed rate so I'm not worried if it's traffic to where I go and it's very safe.

     There are many bars and clubs in Manila but I don't really drink. I am surprised that there are lots of ladyboys and transgenders here. And they are more pretty than girls. wow! Big boobs and nice ass..whitwew! haha!

     A friend shared a bad experience with a ladyboy. He was drinking in a bar and he met a very pretty girl. He really liked her so much so he invited her for a drink. He paid for her drinks. And when they both get drunk, he invited her to his condo.

     They were kissing each other and so on. but he wondered why it took a long time to remove her pants. Shit! she is a ladyboy..! That is funny! He freaked out and said, "Get out!"

     And now he learned his lesson. Whenever he went to a bar, he first asked if she is a straight girl. Haha. I know it's weird for girls but at least he wanted to make sure about the gender.

     When I first entered a big mall, I was scared. I was thinking that how can people get out from that big mall without getting lost? Too many exit and entrance and has many floors. Maybe I can do it too! Why not? So I challenged myself. I tried to get a food.

     First, it was confusing because too many people inside the mall coz Christmas  is near. But I just followed the signs I encountered. So finally, I was able to find the food court. Lots of menus and affordable prices. Nice.

      Then I saw a complete family and it really makes me sad coz I don't have a good family. Someday, I will marry a nice guy and we make our own family. I hope so.

     Then after that, I go around and check nice views. I'm happy that I able to find my way home very safe. Thanks to God I learned something today and I got home very safe.

"my biggest challenge"

     The biggest challenge for people like me who has disability is making people treat me like a normal person and respect me as I am.

     Well, if u ask me, I never consider myself as a disable and I never treat myself like that. I wear clothes I want to wear. I walk like normal. I can run. I can swim. I can dance. For me I'm normal.

     I'm thankful that my friends treat me like normal too. I am friendly and cheerful person. The only exemption is I cannot  a normal shoes. My only weakness is I cannot stand alone for a long time without holding something to support standing.

     But only a few friends knows about that. I don't want to show them my weakness. I want my friends and those people who know me when they hear my name "Debbie", they will remember me as a positive person and rather call me crazy than to remember me as a person that has disability.

    I believe that people treat me the way how I treat myself and see me the way how I see myself. For me.. It's always flattering when they call me beautiful and crazy. Sometimes they don't hand out without me.

   I remember that I jumped out from the window just to get to the disco. Hahaha! I know it's funny. But yes, I did it because my grandparents they didn't allow me to go to the school party at night. "No.. you are not going! you will sleep early."But luckily I didn't break my bones coz I realized that it was dangerous.

   When I decided to go Manila, I remember that my grandparents they were so worried for me and they did not agree. But I am stubborn. Yes, I fight for what I think is right and good for me as long as I don't harm anyone.

    "I know that you care for me. But if u really love me.. You will let me grow up. Let me learn.Just like when you like a flower. Don't pull it off coz it will die. Let it grow and bloom." My grandfather said, " I am always proud of you, dear. But please be always careful for the world is becoming worst nowadays."

    Now that I am in Manila, I am trying to improve myself. I learned a lot from my new friends.
But I know my limitations. I will not break the trust that my grandparents gave me.

  I just hate it when taxi drivers asked which province I came from. Some taxi drivers took advantage once they know I am new in Manila. I may look like "Maria Clara" coz I used to have a long straight black hair. So I cut my hair and colored them. It looks good to me. Not bad.

   I am ready to face Manila.Ready to learn new things. Ready to accept challenges. Ready for a new chapter of my life. Positive!

"i have to learn how to use the public transportation"

   The first week i stayed in manila, I was nervous because i don't know the fate awaiting for me here. And even I'm alone I should not be scared for I am a person who has a dream.

   I'm still happy to have new friends here. They helped me a lot and teach me how to use the public transportation. At first, I find it confusing and difficult to remember especially traffic and pollution.

    The route of the jeepneys and buses are different. Not like in province that I have to wait every 30 minutes before the big bus arrives to take us to the city.

    In my province, I have to walk 15 to 20minutes before reaching the main road. And from the main road, it is 16km away from the city. If I am in hurry I have to ride a motorcycle ( we call it habal-habal) just to reach destinations. Only few jeepneys travel in a day. So no traffic. And only until 4pm . so there are no buses and jeepneys at night.

     It's different in Manila. I think some jeepney drivers don't sleep and working the night shift. Maybe because some people are still working and active at night. But after the new president won(Duterte), I saw changes. The traffic before that usually ends very late at night, now around 10pm the streets are clear and not much traffic and police are always around.

    So it became safer to travel at night unlike before that many holdappers and snatchers. now, the jail is overloaded! haha.

   I remember when I first ride the train. I was so scared! influenced by the too much watching movies especially the "train to busan" movie. Many things on my mind. I was thinking what if the train stops. What if there having technical problems. What if some infected passenger inside the train and we got trapped inside? oh its just a movie. It's not true, I'm just crazy. I have to learn to manage to reach my destination in a faster way ,avoiding traffic.

    I got the ticket. Luckily, there was a handsome man offered me a sit.. oh..yeah! I forgot I'm a disable that's why he offered me.

    It was a nice experienced. I arrived safely but I have to get off from the stairs. I hate stairs , better with an escalator.

    And now I'm learning to use the MRT and the LRT. I find it accessible to use especially rush hours. But only 5am to 10pm. At least, I'm not afraid anymore to ride the train.

   And hopefully to learn more on using public transportation and familiar with the route. I know that God will always protect me wherever I go.


 

"how i learned about bitcoin/ coins.ph"

     My first time in Manila was so exciting. I got new friends from the boarding house. They tried to help and assist me. I met some people and I learned many things from them.

     A good friend from japan heard my story, he has a good heart. He understands my situation. Since I am looking for a job, and it's very difficult because I paid for my room, bills, and my foods, and everyday expenses, my money almost finished.

       My Japanese friend tried to be helpful. He proposed me about blogging. After people read my story, they decide to donate by bitcoin or not. But at least I able to share and inspire people.

      At first, I hesitated because I doubt that it will not click. What if no one will listen? and no one will care to listen to my story?.

      But then he encouraged me to join. he said, "Who knows? This is a good start to reach your dreams. You can save money from Bitcoin and slowly you can start your dream business, you can pay your bills.While looking for a job at least u have savings.Just be yourself and express yourself by blogging."... I said," But how to do it? I don't have ATM card."he said, "don't worry you can withdraw the money even without ATM card in any security bank. Many easy ways to send money. From your blog you can get donations from other countries by using Bitcoin and we have to convert it to peso so you can cash it out."  Yes ,why not? really, it sounds cool like a mobile wallet. So finally I agreed. I see hope for my dreams.

      I don't have PC so he let me borrow his PC and he just bought me a pocket wifi so can have the internet in my room and start blogging.

Coins.ph

     It's very easy to open an account. At first, he asked me to download the Coins.ph application from my mobile. I just completed the verifications such as email, phone, identity, and selfie . In Identity verification, the ID should be valid and readable.  It takes 24hours to 3days to get the confirmation. Not bad. Finally, I got verified and completed the level 2.

     He tried to send me some amount through Coins PHP wallet and it works!

     I tried to withdraw money to any security bank without ATM card by following the steps: from the Php wallet, I click the send and I go to send cash, and I click the cardless Atm instant Payout(24/7). Then I entered the amount I want to cash out. and then after I click next step. Right then, I filled up the full name and mobile number,then complete payment. Then I choose PHP wallet and then pay. Then the coins.ph sent the passcode to my email.And I received a message from coins.ph to my mobile : the 16 digits .

     Then I went to security bank. I press the enter and then press the 16 digits and the passcode. I got the money. It's really cool.

     I also did try to send some amount to my province for my grandparents by using sendah remit. whenever i have questions, i asked the support and they are very friendly and guide me well, they gave me information, and provide answers to my questions.. plus they reply fast!

     My friend explained to me that bitcoin is an electronic currency. A cryptocurrency and a payment system.  He made an account for me in bloggers.com and a twitter account to increase my viewers. And from my every blog, they can see the code of my bitcoin use for donations. All I have to do is to blog and increase my viewers.

     When I first received donations from other countries I felt so happy. And I realized that there is potential for me to earn and inspire people even I am just in my room. Slowly by slowly I will save.

    I see opportunities from this, for I get donations from other countries who appreciate my blogs that even I just stay in my room or whenever i am free ,I can just write blogs and earn .. I could save money and start my dream business and able to be helpful to my grandparents.

     I am very thankful to my Japanese friend who helped me learn about bitcoin and blogging for I am given a chance to share my experience and same time I earn from donations. I am also thankful to those new friends who read my blogs and support, follow my posts. You really help me a lot. A good start saving money for my future business.

      I highly appreciate those who read and donate me. Every day , I am inspired to write something for my blogs. I hope that people like and inspired by my story. Please continue to support me. Help me reach my dreams. Thank you so much !